“I wanted to hurt you but the victory is that I could not stomach it. It’s beautiful. It really is. I had a dream about you. We were in the gold room where everyone finally gets what they want. You said tell me about your books, your visions made of flesh and light and I said This is the Moon. This is the Sun. Let me name the stars for you. Let me take you there. The splash of my voice melting you like a sugar cube… We were in the gold room where everyone finally gets what they want, so I said What do you want? and you said Kiss me. Here I am leaving the clues. I am singing now while Rome burns. We are all just trying to be holy. My applejack, my silent night. We are all going forward. None of us are going back”.